看着你的照片，让我很怀疑，我到底认不认识你？你到底还是不时我认识的那个人？我想你跟本就不存在了。原来，时间并不代表已切。不管我认识你多久都好，你到底是个怎样的人，我一点都不知道。
我真的是，非常非常非常的白痴。
我受够着一切了！
根本没有人理会我的感受！
Initially, I wanted to close down the blog.
But given a second thought, I wouldn't.
There's just too much memories.
Maybe, I'm gonna start my life all over again, with another blog.
Love,
Amerlin
New Year
1. I'll be moving in about 20 days or a month(Probably living in some no transport place)
2. No matter how I studied my math, I still got over 10 chapters to study
3. I have not completed my homework
4. I don't have money :(
5. I'm going to be in class 211 instead of 208 next year, with only 1 guy I'm familiar with
6. My timetable sucks
7. I have a friend who is an asshole
8. I got a bitchy aunt
9. I've got only a few true friends
10. I don't have courage
That summarizes everything.
You know, it took me so long to realise that if I want a true friend, I have to go through so much with the person, like overcoming people's gossip, not being friends, and then being friends again, then you will truly understand the person.
I may not understand every of my friends around me, but somehow, something just got through my mind.
I admit that I'm selfish, cause I'm hoping for you to be promoted now, because I don't want to be alone. You are a great friend to hang out with, to eat, to have fun and study with.
Next year I'm gonna get into another class with complete strangers. Ahhhh, I don't like the feeling of knowing new people. Cause I have no courage to continue anything any further.
So much things happened last year, its not been easy for me and my family to pull through. I know that its gonna be worse soon. I just sincerely hopes for a miracle to happen now.
Today is my birthday.
Initially, I wasn't looking forward to it at all. Not even happy about it.
If such disaster happens a day before my birthday, and its impact can be as long as few years. Who's gonna be in the mood to celebrate for me ? Even if there is people around to celebrate for me, I doubt I will have enough money to pay for all these either.
How I wish I can postpone my birthday. Maybe till next year, when things get a little better. Well, that's just so positive, but the fact is, things ain't gonna get better. We all knew it, its just gonna be worse, just that no one wants to say out the truth.
However, now, as I see all my old friends, lost friends wishing me happy birthday. I'm feeling much better.
Thank you everyone.
I feel like crying.
原来我已经经历过那么多事了。。。也许再难再辛苦的事，总有一天都会结束。
